My heart floats through the night,
wings slowly sliding in the sky,
they're taken away by this love,
this joy overtaking my mind.
I am amazed,
overwhelmed,
reminded every day,
that this love is just my lover and me.
The power of His words,
each one healing water on the deepest wounds.
His touch,
each time makes my soul sing within.
And oh...
His love. 
I am no longer standing on two feet,
but hovering above my current existence.
His love seems to remove me from this current body,
crooked paths,
the never ending reminders of what was.
I am no longer defined by the outer skin I'm in,
but by the overflowing love for Him that's been boiling inside.
And if this is the only love I come to know,
my blessings are more than the world can conceive.

Truly, forever this love will be.

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I am told
I must conform
transform,
become a part
of this crowded norm.
The way I carry myself,
my hair,
what I wear,
must all exist to fit in.
But I stand alone,
free,
I don't care
if they don't love me!
The only one I want to be
is what God claims for me.
Must I stand tall in stilettos,
and fit into a slight size 3
just so my God accepts me?
I must be thankful
every day that I wake,
because my God
is not like anyone here,
because he doesn't care
on how I conform,
or transform,
to the physical norms.
All God wants
is a heart that is true,
tries to bloom,
and he'll move me on,
no matter what
the rest of the world
thinks it can make me do.

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I look in the mirror,
this is all strange.
I feel so different,
peaceful,
happy,
somehow in a better place.
I feel like I should be sad.
I always have been,
so maybe always should be.
Am I really ok?
Is it possible I am lying
to the people I love
and this heart deep?
I seem to smile,
with out wanting to die
and I am starting to wonder why.
I can say that I am alone,
I made myself strong,
no one else must be thanked,
but that would be all wrong.
Am I really ok?
I look around,
maybe I'll find an answer,
and I see my friends,
my family,
my counselors...
and they all lead me to look up.
And I must finally say...
I must be ok.
God has led me to this place,
these people,
new ways,
He has shown me that I am ok.

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I look back,
not too long ago,
and I wonder how this all changed.
I had told God
"Give me just a few more years."
He didn't seem to listen to this plea.
I question why he chose me,
when I was so unwilling to change.
But then all my self-reliance died,
and I realized there was nothing more to gain.

There's a new me.
I don't understand it.
I believe it shouldn't be.
There's a new me.
I can't seem to grasp it.
I still don't believe what I see.
There's a new me.
How is this true.
I clung to my insecurities.
There's a new me.
My life keeps on changing,
and every day is another new me.

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My dear love,

I must let you know the truth.
I find you beautiful,
amazing,
pure in my eyes.

My dear bride,

I must let you know the truth.
There is a banquet,
a celebration,
an everlasting faithfulness to you.

My dear one,

I must let you know the truth.
I have died for you,
gave up my flesh and bones,
so it is something you will never have to do.

My dear child,

I must let you know the truth.
I am here to protect you,
hold you,
keep a light on in the dark.

My dear love,

I must let you know the truth.
Once you love me,
accept my sacrifice,
I will always love you.

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