A fellow sister and long time friend has hurt me several times with words and actions. I know that I need to express my feelings to her, but it's very difficult to make myself do it. I need help finding the courage.
Take a box of kleenex and set it by your side. Say, " Father, what my sister and friend did and said to me was sin. (now pick out a kleenex from the box. The kleenex will represent the wrong doings/sin) I place that sin on the cross of Jesus, (drop the tissue in a waste basket, never to be used again) I will never have any accusations against them. Bless her Father. Thank you Jesus.
Jesus took many hurts and accusations and never defended Himself. He looked the tormenter and accuser in the eye and said, I love you. It was like the Father saying to Jesus at the last. " Now is the time to decide, will it be your love or your last breath. And with the last breath of Jesus, He said, I love you, and died.
It sounds like ungorgiveness may be festering in your heart. " Unforgiveness is a poison a person drinks hoping the other person gets sick".