Am I the only one that feels like I am in the matrix? Does it seem like everything you do is being watched and everyone around you is made up by ?, your imagination or the Higher Power?  Are we not an island where everything we do affects everyone else or everyone else around us affect us?  Is everyone around us a test for us or are they real?  Are we real?  Is God real?  What do we believe?  There are many instances in the bible where believers have a momentary lapse in brain cells.  I guess we are no different.  I have lived my life for God because I haven't known any different.  If I didn't know His power and presence I would probably doubt all the time instead of occasionally in a moment of weakness.  Where was God when???  I have had many awful things happen to me and my family.  Where was God?  He was there by our side waiting for us to ask for help.  Waiting to see what we would do and when we would decide to say it is enough.  God gets a bad rap most of the time.  God didn't move when we wanted Him to.  God didn't heal our bodies when we wanted.  His ways and thoughts are not ours, thank goodness.  He knows the end from the beginning and the beginning from the end.  He looks at the end result, we look at the right now.  Thankfully He knows that even though I have a moment of weakness, He doesn't give up on me because He knows in the next moment I will praise Him again with my whole heart because I remember the whole picture.  The whole picture is, it doesn't matter what is going on, He is there and doesn't forget; unlike we are not there for Him and we forget.  So instead of asking God why, God asks why.  Why we weren't praying and staying in His presence that could have prevented a lot of what is going wrong in our lives?  In His presence we hear His voice and do or don't do what He instructs us to.  Lord help me remember this.

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