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Posted On 02/17/2012 20:08:43 by ShellM

Have u ever been in the place of darkness? I know I have.

It all started about 13 yrs ago. A Saturday nite, coming home from an outing with my family.  All of a sudden, things went bad ...

I will blog about that later.

Tonight, the enemy has, as many times since I got sick, tried to make me doubt that God has healed me.  I have these, what I call "spells" ... kinda like panic attacks, but they arent.

I am getting to the age of the "menopause" trip. One I both look forward too, and dread.  These "spells" seem to be happening more in the last month or so.

I suddenly feel like I am not goin to breathe right, loose my breath.  It is a very frightening thing. 

The enemy knows that I have turned my life around, that I am living the way God always intended for me to live ... and he does not like it!

I have prayed over this one thing for so long, and I KNOW that God healed me yrs ago from it.

So why does it still bring fear?  Because the enemy knows that if he can bring fear, that doubt will come.

I refuse! Flat out refuse to give up ... God brought me thru all that He has for a reason ... there are others out there that I can help ... that I can relate too ...

God sent His Word and healed them ... I am one of the "them" and so are you. 

I believe God brought me to this site for a special reason ... and I am ready to do what He wants me to do ...

Am I perfect? No way ... I am a forgiven woman, not where I wanna be, but thank God not where I was ...

I have help several positions in the church ... walked away to the bars, BUT thru God's mercy and grace I am back where I belong ...

In His tender loving care ....

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From: ShellM
02/29/2012 12:18:48

Thank everyone for ur sweet, helpful comments. I am still holding to God's unchanging hand. The situation is worsening here, as I am being evicted from our home ... my boyfriend lost his job Jan 1st and it has been a struggle. His lawyer has delayed the court date for his divorce, so that we can make all things right in God's eyes ... my car is on its last leg, the only one we have ... the physical problems keep tryin to come, but I rebuke them and keep goin.


Yes, my faith has been tested, a lot seems here lately ... but, as I meditate on Psalms 34, I find a sense of hope ... I know my God will make a way where there seems to be none ... and with the physical eye, we can see no hope, but with my spiritual eyes, God will not let me down!


There are storms ragin outside, tornado's, severe thunderstorms, but inside, I have hope ... I know the Lord will make a way for me ... (humming the ole song) ...


Blessings and favor on u and ur household ...


In Christ,


Shell


 


From: ShellM
02/29/2012 12:13:28


sunnyface wrote:


I too am going thru menopause. I find that I am lonely a lot of the time. My kids have all left home and I'm still a young 47 and live with a man that can be so selfish. At times I feel like throwing in the towel on life and love...But I pray. Still I find my life very lonely.



From: Jarsnj2
02/23/2012 06:04:04

With God there is eternal Life, fear not for he has plans for your life.  Never fear the natural things that God planned for our lives, we all will go through that thing which you fear, but life does not stop there.  There are at least 7 billion people in the world (probably much more) for you to share your struggles with and triumphs with.  You are a light and His witness.  God bless you and keep you safe!  Fear is crippling, I know.  Loneliness is also crippling.  Turn from them both and stick with God.  Peace!


From: sunnyface
02/20/2012 23:52:23

I too am going thru menopause. I find that I am lonely a lot of the time. My kids have all left home and I'm still a young 47 and live with a man that can be so selfish. At times I feel like throwing in the towel on life and love...But I pray. Still I find my life very lonely.


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