It has been a hard month, but with God I know all things are possible.  I am sitting at school right now preparing for my English Class at 2pm.  I finished my paper thank God. 

Things I am struggling with are moving on.  I am still lost in the past.  I want what I used to have. I want people in my life that I used to have.

What I'm failing to realize is that its a NEW SEASON! God has put really good people all around me to support me and to build me up.  My heart still hurts that I have, by my own doing, lost some great supports.

I'm just kinda angry still because someone I love with all my heart as a friend said she would always be there no matter what and broke her promise.

I feel like I'm left alone in the wilderness searching for the direction in which to go.

I still love this person and I always will, but my heart is still breaking. This person was not only my former pastor, but a mother figure to me.  I feel so bad about the part I played in causing it.  A part of me wants to go back and fix everything.

That's not possible though. Praying for restoration.. in God's time I guess.

Love,

eb

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