It has been a hard month, but with God I know all things are possible. I am sitting at school right now preparing for my English Class at 2pm. I finished my paper thank God.
Things I am struggling with are moving on. I am still lost in the past. I want what I used to have. I want people in my life that I used to have.
What I'm failing to realize is that its a NEW SEASON! God has put really good people all around me to support me and to build me up. My heart still hurts that I have, by my own doing, lost some great supports.
I'm just kinda angry still because someone I love with all my heart as a friend said she would always be there no matter what and broke her promise.
I feel like I'm left alone in the wilderness searching for the direction in which to go.
I still love this person and I always will, but my heart is still breaking. This person was not only my former pastor, but a mother figure to me. I feel so bad about the part I played in causing it. A part of me wants to go back and fix everything.
That's not possible though. Praying for restoration.. in God's time I guess.